AND STILL I CRY
Barbara A. Robinson is one of the most celebrated and respected entrepreneurs in Maryland. Her speaking engagements sell out and garner standing ovations all across the country. Her humanitarian efforts are lauded as precedent-setting. She inspires tens of thousands of people with her radio show, a blend of business advice and down-to-earth wisdom. To meet Barbara Robinson and experience her compassion and love of life, you would never know that her past was the stuff of which nightmares are made.
In her memoir And Still I Cry, Barbara chronicles with disarming honesty her journey from poverty, physical and sexual abuse and drug addiction to personal and professional success and fulfillment. Hoping that her story will inspire others to overcome their own obstacles, Barbara shares deeply private experiences and how she turned pain into purpose and fear into fuel. She talks openly about:
- Her mother's lifelong battle with alcoholism
- How she grew up in a domestic violence household
- Being beaten and molested by her stepfather
- Loneliness, low self-esteem and dangerous episodes of self-destruction
- Her successful struggle against addiction
- Her husband's infidelity and how she saved their marriage, which is lasted 47 years.
- Her tragedies and triumphs as a parent
- Her greatest challenges as a business woman
A powerful testimonial to the resiliency of the human spirit, And Still I Cry is a rare and inspiring story of courage, dignity and determination in the face of unimaginable odds.
AND STILL, I CRY: a Memoir
(A brief synopsis of each chapter)
This chapter talks about the authors early childhood while living in Alexander City, Alabama C the author's birth place C and Columbus, Georgia where she graduated from high school. The author's biological father is discussed in this book.
Georgia My Hell
This chapter discusses Barbara's early highschool days in Columbus, Georgia, the beatings she received from her stepfather, the sexual molestation by her stepfather, the violence her mother suffered, her mother's battle with alcoholism, and domestic violence at its worse.
Growing Up Scared
This chapter discusses the author's youth and having to fight off older men who tried to have sex with her. Because Barbara's mother was an alcoholic, some of the older men in the neighborhood thought that Barbara was easy prey for them. Barbara talks about fearing her stepfather, not wanting to be at home alone with him, and how she stayed away from home until her mother got home from work. Barbara talks about her fainting spells that lasted throughout her early school years, her having to see a psychiatrist when she was in the 9th grade, and the episode when she tried kill her stepfather.
This chapter discusses how Barbara's mother was a different person when she was sober than when she was drunk. When she was sober she was a loving and gentle woman but when she was under the influence of alcohol she was an abusive and violent person.
Getting My Act Together
During the summer months when school was closed for the summer, Barbara worked as a maid for several white families to earn money for school clothes and to support herself when her step father kicked her out of the house. She also worked at a diner at night after school. She discusses this experience in this chapter.
Do Kin Folks Care
Barbara lived with her aunt MaeLizzie when her stepfather kicked her out of the house when she tried to defend her mother while he was beating her. Barbara discusses her experiences of working at the USO Club in Columbus, Georgia and at the Officers Club in Fort Benning Georgia.
Hard Knocks, But My Way
A young single high school student living in a rooming house where soldiers lived and sleeping in an open area was not pleasant but it was better than sleeping in the streets. Barbara's family didn't want her. Two teachers helped her get to Baltimore to go to college. She talks about her trip to Baltimore, the shabby clothes she wore during the trip, the ragged luggage she carried, the measly one dollar she had and the embarrassment of the train conductor.
A Taste of College
In this chapter Barbara discusses her arrival at Morgan State College. She couldn't afford to live in the dorm; therefore, she had to move into an approved home off campus. That move allowed her to meet the man who was to become her husband, a marriage that lasted for 47 years.
Heartache, infidelity, and the author's husband Jerry's, near death experience are discussed in this chapter
Alone and Lonely
In this chapter, Barbara discusses being on welfare, living in the projects, her children's Christmas toys and clothes being stolen, her husband's so called Afriends trying to seduce her while he was recovering from a gunshot wound, and her husband's uncle trying to entice her to have sex with him.
In this chapter Barbara discusses her life in Flag House Courts, an inner city projects in Baltimore Maryland, what it was like living with rats and roaches every day, her husband's infidelity, and the riots of the 1960s.
Barbara was raped at gunpoint by someone she knew and who later murdered one of his rape victims. She discusses her bout with drugs, the night life and being attacked by a cab driver.
In this chapter Barbara discusses her life in Boston, living around pimps and prostitutes, the fast life of drugs and night clubs.
In this chapter Barbara discusses her stepfather, Frank, the way he lived, the way he died and her feelings about him.
Tribute to a Great Lady
This chapter is a farewell to Barbara's mother. Although her mother was an alcoholic and eventually died from the disease, to Barbara her mother was the most beautiful person she had ever met.
The American Dream
Barbara discusses the early part of her career with the Maryland court system and her life starting out as an entrepreneur after she resigned from the court system. She discusses being the first woman and the first African American to hold positions in management with the District Court, the Supreme Bench and the Circuit Court.
Sister You Are Not Alone
Barbara couldn't control her abusive ways or the anger that she harbored as an adult victim of child abuse. This chapter addresses the question ADo abused children grow up to become abusive parents?
This chapter addresses some of the reasons why Barbara chose the title And Still, I Cry for this book and in her own words, ALooking forward to tomorrow, I have seen yesterday and I am dealing with today.
AND STILL I CRY